MY MIND, IN WORDS
Monday, January 16, 2017
Sunday, July 7, 2013
Doing the ‘I Do’ Right
1. Make a To-Do list
2. Sort your requirements & their budgets
3. Research and short-list before you venture out
It’s time to Say Shaadi!
Saturday, March 9, 2013
LIFE, ET CETERA.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Alive, forever
Nay, you say? You haven't?
But look around you and notice you must do,
for it is right here, within your purview.
Here it is, all brown and green,
with a yellow, peach or light blue sheen
The one and only ever so deserving
for God to say "Live ever,never dying"
With the feet firmly rooted on the ground
and the fruits of hardwork bearing profound,
with the arms held up in reverence praying
and the spirit never swaying or braying.
A scoop of sunlight, a bowl of mud,
a dash of air,(keep it) fresh if you could,
No more to weave the majic I swear,
to conjure the meal for you to tear.
But wait, it tangles the electric wire,
and comes in the way of a smooth ride,
It stubbornly blocks the concrete delight
so, slay it, axe it, with all your might.
Say, have you ever seen a being eternal?
Nay, you say? Never ever?
But you kill it, whenever you actually do,
and so, what you say is true.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
A narrative
It was a fortnight before exams. I was buried in work. Just a few weeks back, I was buried in masti. Likewise. That day was the deadline for my laboratory record submission. I skipped my lunch, downed a juice and went to work along with my friend P. We had to miss our post-lunch lectures to finally complete it. Oh! At last! I grabbed my record and ran along a flight of stairs to my lab in the second floor with P beside me. Only after I entered the lab and gave my record to sir, did I realize that we were, at that time, supposed to be in the middle of a lecture. We bunked! *Bunking is, supposedly, a great offence to every Tom, Dick & Harry of the faculty.* Blow! I glanced at P in horror. Her face was a mirror image of mine. Presently, sir looked at me and then at his watch.
“Don’t you have any classes now?” he asked.
-Silence-
Lab in-charges, just to look at, are draculas. That, without us being guilty. And now?!!
“You heard me.”
“I have sir, yes.” Oh! trouble!
“So, you have bunked your class?”
I just nodded. Trust your voice to explain yourself at such times and you will invent a new dialect. Quite unintelligible to yourself. I didn’t want to take the risk.
“Is the attendance finalized yet?” he asked.
“Yes, sir.”
He gave me a sharp look. That was the time when I couldn’t speak even if I had anything to say. He started off. “Of course! The attendance is finalized. We don’t need to attend classes anymore. What good there is in listening to a boring lecture now? That’s what you think, right?”
He paused for a second. P was throwing scared glances at me. She was anxious that I would get upset. I stood with my head bent.
“You think you are a gem, don’t you? You think you are a miss-know-it-all. After all, you got placed in a company. *gosh! the sarcasm!* You have grown horns. Now the lectures have become silly and stupid for you.”
He flipped through my record and snapped at me for not labeling a figure well.
“I’ll show you. Lab externals are not far away. They are not going to be easy for you. I’ll see how clever you are. Let’s see how well you’ll answer your viva. One mistake and alas! You’ll regret. I’ll teach you a lesson or two, you silly girl!”
P was almost staring at me. She was now sure that I was weeping. She must have noticed my jaw trembling. She tried hard to console me with a comforting glance. But I wouldn’t look at her.
Sir gave my record back and scribbled something beside my name in the register, grunting “Too good to attend classes. Thinks she is a gem.” He soon corrected P’s record.
As soon as we were out of the lab, I ran into the waiting room. Just when P took my hand in hers to comfort me, did I burst out laughing. All she could exclaim was,
“Are you crazy?!”
“God, P! Look at you! You are woe-begone!” I cried.
P looked astonished.
“You surprise me! You heard all those nasty things! How could you possibly laugh?!
But wait, I saw your jaws trembling and your fists clenched. I was pained to see that you were trying hard to hold back your tears, and all this time you were trying hard not to laugh?!!”
“Oh dear! Cheer up P! I was frightened at first but the thing he said sarcastically about me being a gem tickled me crazy. I almost said ‘yes, sir’ but I bit my lip.”
“ Heavens! Go to gokul chat! *P said that thing about gokul chat ever since there had been an explosion there. It means – ‘go, die!’* You could have got us into a nice big trouble with cream-and-a-cherry-on-top if u said that!”
“You are right P. But you know, I always thought I was a gem. Unpolished. Being polished. We all are. Every person is a gem. There is something worthwhile in everyone. Let’s discover our worth and let’s shine!” I said solemnly.
P nodded. She looked at me and grinned.
Later, I confided to P that I was a little anxious about my internal lab marks. *Lab marks are awarded based on a single priority. In-charge’s impression upon you.* She kept telling me that they would not be very bad. Well, I hoped.
Next day, as soon as I reached college, P ran towards me and announced that I got 24 marks out of 25 for the lab internal.
I gaped at her.
“Are you sure?!” I asked.
“Indeed! The list of marks is put up in the notice board.”
“Magnificent!” I exclaimed, and hugged her.
Life sure has lots of surprises. Big and small. Pleasant and not. Doesn’t it?
Thursday, October 16, 2008
'Billi' Blues
No, i'm not talking about my pet. I have no pets. It is about CAT (cat hereafter)...'see-aay-tee' and I couldn't dream of it being my pet. Come on now, pets de-stress. The antonym..i mean, the exact opposite is what cat does to me. And argh! It seems to be upsetting my modest language too.
Presently, it has me balanced on its palm and it can land me in/on
(a) GHMC dustbin, or (b) cloud nine. So much for one-and-a-half years of preparation. Okay, not exactly. Make it half an year....or maybe....three months? Anyways, Rohini sitting through out the day- working out problems, trying to comprehend the most incomprehensible passages and interpreting all those Mars-ish DI sets for three months straight is quite an achievement. The result? I end up with the same percentiles as i used to score before these blessed three months. Grossest gross. Tut-tut.
Now with one month left for the Doomsday, you can actually hear my spine cracking. It is not just cat-blues now- it is reds and greens and blacks (bleak(s)?) - all together in a stomach churning mush.
As a ravenous reader, i have always liked mystery novels. But my unsuspecting fancy seems to have gotten me into trouble. One fine day, God, amused by me, decided to insinuate into my life that blighted thing - mystery.
What will my cat scores be like? Will i get any calls at all? Even if i do get them, will i be able to pass through the next big thing...GD and PI? Tut-tut again. Reading/watching a mystery is fun. Being a part of it is...'yoww'. Tut...okay. I will not say it again.
But to clear my conscience- cat isn't as dark a picture as i have painted...it has its silver linings too...may be i'll talk about them when i'm done with the exam. It did not really upset my language ( it was just my meanness talking) , it rather enriched it (Fine! To some extent atleast?). And yeah, it has consented to being the topic for my blog.
Pretty sweet, no?
Legend
CAT : Common Admission Test.
GHMC : Greater Hyderabad Municipal Corporation.
DI : Data Interpretation
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Eyes stubbornly spill
the copious tears I try holding back.
The wretched feeling
in the moribund heart
returns with a vengeance.
Veins burst,
though I see no blood.
The bone aches,
like when you hammer nails.
And those nerves-
are they tied into a knot?
My fingertips burn,
when they brush my skin
Am I to melt,
and evaporate?
But at times,
I do wish I could.
Puff and gone,
never to be again born.
But what have I done,
to bear this torture?
My life now seems
in a perennial languor
My flesh has grown
so senile
The once loquacious lips
are now sewn up.
The lucid eye
is now a glassy sea.
Blood they say,
is thicker than water
But mine has turned
so gossamer -
that tears now seem
much thicker and darker.
The very people
I revered , I loved,
who once said
‘love you too’,
now each has, a derisive eye
that slashes my soul
beyond repair.
But oh, it is only human to err
then why is it that
only He can forgive?
If only, this incessant pain
would not crush the bone,
nor torment the mind,
nor pierce the heart.
If pain, was only skin-deep.
Or something real,
I could quickly amputate.
An ode to my handbag
My efficient, handy handbag
With flowers undying, blooming upon you,
Loyally hanging on my shoulder,
You keep company in my life’s pursues.
I missed my bus and was walking all the way
My new shoe was peevish, it bit my little toe
Every step hurt - oh, so very much
When ‘baggy’ conjured up a band-aid for my succour.
A lonely day in an alien town
Alas! The network did not follow me there
A bubble of boredom was swelling in my head
When you brought out a book miraculously.
Trouble yet again, at my work place
A seminar to be given at the end of the day
I lunge for my bag and there I find
My hair brush, my gloss and all that I need.
Walking on a road – deserted and dark,
I long for home which is ever so far
A twisted crook, I spot stalking me,
But baggy has a pepper-spray in its belly.
This mundane poem is an ode for you
I know you deserve more,
but that’s all I could brew.
Love you, my baggy, I always, always do.